three words that became hard to say

So I just got back from a legit orgasm in my ears that lasted for over 3 hours. It was unreal. Who gave me this insane, body shaking pleasure?! THE AVETT BROTHERS.

I have always known they were good, but they didn't pass into the realm of great for me until listening to their latest album "I and Love and You" about six times. The beats are catchy. The songs are filled with deep, inspirational lyrics that cause your heart to melt and your head to be on the verge of explosion based on the pure combination of feel-good words. They just passed into the land of mind-boggling goodness tonight though, because I understood their work as artists, and realized that they are a super group comprised of extremely talented individuals who each bring their own personality and vibe to the stage. I would, and probably should, look up their names etc but it is like 21 minutes past my bed time and research is not on my mind.

I didn't stop moving the entire time. My body was swaying and my brain was working and at one point I started crying. Their songs are so raw and about unrelenting love, which honestly is the last thing I even want to think about after ending a multiple year, whirlwind of a relationship, but that love can be applied to other relationships as well, or even just an understanding of the world and your place in it. We are all connected, love extends beyond nature or spirituality or god or karma or anything else you may tell yourself as a means of explanation. The Avett Brothers, through their music, brought me back to that sensation of awakening, that body shaking minute when you are completely self-conscious but unabashedly so, when something else takes over reminding your body and soul and mind that they are indeed connected. It was just what I needed.

Enjoy the song:

I and Love and You

P.S sorry about the cheeseball factor of this post. It's just feelings, we all have them sometimes.

there's never enough.

A brief list of things I have learned in the past week:

1. It is too small of a school to date for 3.5 years on and off and then break up. There's nowhere to move on.
2.That said, tough things must be done. This was tough, but it is done.
3. That extremely cliche saying about doors opening and closing and opening is actually true. to an extent,
4. I forget how to play singles.
5. Like mother, like daughter. "Middlemarch" is quickly turning into my new favorite book.
6. Stars.
7. Coffee no longer has an effect on me, or maybe it does, but I don't know because apparently I can drink 2 cups at 9 pm and still accidentally pass out (on my laptop) 2 hours later. WHOOOOPS.
8.the physic paramount.
9. I'm out of stuff I learned.

missing this:

enjoy the.... i don't know.

unclear.

This is me freaking out about next year.

To analyze this, the large animal head (lama?) is next year, or the real world. I am the little boy trapped in the backseat of a car trying to comprehend what the heck is going on. Moral: nobody wins.

we getting funky on the scene

This always happens. I always get a burst of inspiration at the worst possible time. I'm sitting here reading over my thesis for my senior project, and all I want to do is write. But I can't because I am cramming for this meeting and don't want to look like a fool during it.

I will say this: life is a balance. find yours. yes, it is cheesy. but in all seriousness, balance it out to not let other's down. whether you're high or low, we gotta tip on the tight rope.

enjoy the tightrope.